“Our old sinful selves were crucified with Christ so that sin might lose its power in our lives. We are no longer slaves to sin. For when we died with Christ we were set free from the power of sin. And since we died with Christ, we know we will also share his new life.” Romans 6:6-8
It's this uncomfortable process I have been going through as I prepare for this Women's Conference. It's the deafening realization of how much Miss "Me" controls me.
He shows me how much I listen to her, give into her. She is so much a part of me; I haven't realized how much control she has had over me.
"Who do you think you are? What do you have to offer? Why are you trying to be someone you are not? This house is always a mess; he needs to help out more. You need a break. Spend more time for you. It's okay to be lazy. You need some new clothes, go shopping, save later. You disappoint him. You will never be good enough. Don’t feel bad for yelling. He needs to do what you want. Can you believe she acts like that? It’s not gossip, you are just concerned. Watch T.V. it’s okay, a few hours never hurt anyone.”
These are things she speaks to me, lies, dissension, self-serving, judgment, and gossip. These are things His Word reveals to me, deep in my heart; His light penetrates the dark areas of her living space. She seems to have a bigger living space than I realized.
These realities, they break me, and make her uncomfortable. His Word causes a separation between us, one that demands her to be crucified.
He speaks, “To follow me, you must die to her, to self. Believe My truth, My words. She is the old you, you have been made new in Me.”
How do I Father, how do I overcome her? How do I overcome the one who has been around for so long?
“Let me expose her to My Light. I will remove her from her living space and take up residency. Believe in My truths, listen to My Words. Let me separate you from her.”
Oh Father that it would be so easy, so easy to die to her, and then to share with others how to die to their Miss “ME’s”
“Every day you will have to die to her. Every day, you will have to fill your spaces with My Word. Every day! I have set you free from her control.”
Do I want to die to her, to the feelings she lives by, and the distractions she uses to ignore the truth. Have I become so familiar with her that without her I am not sure who I am?
Is living in Him enough? Do I believe His truth’s and love for me? Is it possible to live off what His Word says, and not off my feelings?
YES! I can overcome this former way of life. I can overcome Miss “Me” by claiming His truth and promises for me. I can die to her every day, until she is no longer a part of me.
Jesus remove all areas of living space Miss “Me” has taken up. Expose her for who she really is. Help me to have the strength to overcome her on a daily basis. Keep me from believing her lies and giving into her feelings. Amen
