Clinging

"I have tried my best to find you-don't let me wander from your commands." Psalm 119:10

This has nothing to do with anything, except it is 2:00 a.m. we have been in the ER since 10:00 and for some reason Avery and Garrett are snuggled up in the tiny bed sound asleep. 

I on the other hand, am sitting in the chair watching patients be wheeled up and down the hall wondering how in the world the doctors and nurses do this day in and day out.

It has been enough for me over the last several months to deal with two sick boys, but at the end of the day, whenever that might be; we all manage to make it through the same way-by the grace of God.

How could I ever cling to anything other than Christ-yet at times I do, whether my husband or my parents, I cling to them for the "right now" that my flesh desires.

Kind of like these patients and us, are clinging to the wisdom of the doctors to provide the medical care we need to get ourselves better, or in our case our babies better.

It is crazy how much more we cling to society and people than to Christ, and we don't even realize how bad we do it, but it is because our flesh demands right now!

Lord take my eyes off of the right now my flesh desires and place them upon You, the only who can fulfill the longing in my heart, the needs my soul cries out for, and the desperation my body has for rest, healing, comfort, and protection. Only You Jesus can satisfy, set my eyes and thoughts on You. Turn what I know into belief and action. Amen