This I have known but today I have done!

“Turn to me now, while there is time. Give me your hearts.” Joel 2:12

Just today the Lord opened my heart to an area of sin that I have been holding on to, nurturing, feeding, and focusing on for some time now. It is an area that has caused a lot of pain, sadness, anger, frustration and bitterness in my life.  This area has consumed my thoughts, actions, speech, and behavior. Satan has taken full advantage of this sin and has caused lots of dissension to arise.

For the longest time I have believed that I was doing what I was supposed to do, but I wasn’t. I was putting blame on others for my own poor actions. I was the one at fault. I took things into my own hands instead of turning to God and letting Him tend to my heart.  

But today my friends, the Lord removed the veil from my eyes, grabbed my hand and led me to the deepest part of my heart where the sin began. From there He showed me that the driving force behind my actions and behavior was because of a thing called jealousy. This moment for me was so devastating, embarrassing, and shameful. But from this bad has now come good!

As I walked in the darkness of this area I began to confess and admit my sins before Him. And some amazing things happened. I began to experience God’s grace, His mercy, and His forgiveness and I mean for the first time I have felt His grace, mercy, and forgiveness go from my mind straight to the place they belong, my heart. They have finally moved the 6 inches!

The good keeps going; His light than began to penetrate through the darkness bringing a peace that is still surpassing my understanding and Satan has finally been put in his place.

God has been telling me now for a solid week; turn to me now, while there is time, give me your heart. And it has taken up to today for me to finally let my guard down, swallow my pride, remove the stubbornness and see that I was the one needing to turn to Him and give Him my heart so He could bring healing and freedom.

I now know more than ever that for healing to begin I must allow God to take me to the darkest places within me. The places where I close Him off, the places in my heart where I have shoved hurt, shame, pride, and sin and closed the door. I must give Him ALL areas of my heart and ALL the control. This I have known but today I have done!

Prayer: There is victory in You, Jesus my Savior forever. You have lead me to a place I have longed for healing and freedom. I turned to You and gave You my heart and in return You healed it, clothed it, and filled it with Your love, mercy, and grace. Thank You Jesus! Amen